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Sorry for no october post, just didn't have anything to say.

Learning About

My journey to learn how to hand-code HTML/CSS has gone nowhere. So now I'm learning about comic-making!
Since starting Bucktooth and Gapi, I've been focused on learning the art of the cartoon. I feel really inspired, like my drive to create has been replenished. I can tell serious stories so much more emphatically through comics than in literature. Of course, I still love writing, but comics combine two of my favorite things; drawing, and writing dialogue! I also plan to learn how to write scripts.

Working On

The usual things... Godly Foals has been re-christened to Goldcountry Godling; Chronicle of the Godly Foal, though honestly I might drop the subtitle... I am also working on creating my own flash games, which I've posted to Newgrounds. I am fascinated by dressup games, so I've only made those so far. Unfortunate that something so fun is such a dead art form.....

Doing For Leisure

I have discovered the art of Gaming. I've been playing a lot more games lately, Half-Life 1 and 2, Mouthwashing(I might have to make a post specifically about that game..), Webfishing, Garry's Mod, Among Us, The Sims 4, Lethal Company, Portal 1 and 2, Team Fortress 2, Disco Elysium, etc... I've learned to appreciate the art of video games and I've finally started to play them. I've played video games all my life, of course, but I never found myself Particularly interested in them. Not enough to call myself a "gamer." Now I guess I can call myself that? Who knows.

Anyway, that's all for now. This has been Jo, see you!

Current Mood: giddy
Current Location: Pony Express Long Haul Freighter Tulpar
Current Music: Insanity - Oingo Boingo

i started a webcomic recently, Bucktooth N Gapi, it's called. i like it.

ive also eaten some good food lately, and ive found some friends that i enjoy talking to. turns out, fandom friends are very easy to find.

lets hope i can make it on time in october.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Location: bluesky
Current Music: petals.mp3

WHOOPS!

anyway, we won't dwell on it.

i recently broke it off with a long-time friend. it hurt quite badly, but it just wasn't working anymore. that now leaves me with characters upon characters that used to intertwine and now i have to piece it back together. im deciding to make light of the situation and take this on as a new project. i suppose the first thing to do would be to make a flow chart or a family tree, just so i can make sense of who knows who, whos related to who, whos dating who, etc.

i think that this project will be a good creative outlet for me. ive been struggling to feel connected to these characters for quite a while, because there was just too much to keep track of. but now the pieces dont fit anywhere, so i can rebuild the puzzle and actually keep track of it this time.

i recently switched over to Libreoffice, instead of Google Docs. i think that AI services in my writing software is the last straw for me.

i also washed my water bottle today, for the first time since i got it on christmas last year. gross, i know, but it never bothered me until i accidentally used the straw from it in some root beer, and didn't wash the straw after. turned all the water i got disgusting, so i gave it a good scrub. since washing it, ive realized that i should do this much, much more often, because the water tastes crisper. good thing i have an iron stomach, right?

i wonder if the bottle is dishwasher-safe...

anyway, that's all i have for now. this has been Jo, i'll try to see you next month.

Current Mood: sad, but hopeful
Current Location: Dreamland
Current Music: i dont know how to tell you that youre my best friend(and that i love you) - VP

I have decided, once and for all, to dedicate myself to writing a blog post on this site regularly.

On the 17th of every month, I will write a blog post about something-or-other, doesn't matter what.

I have also decided to not give myself a word limit, because I feel as though that would de-motivate me from writing, and the point is to write more, not less.

I hope to see you all more soon.

Current Mood: determined
Current Location: Equestria
Current Music: femtanyl - DOGMATICA

Ever since my incident with the rice pudding, I have largely neglected to post on this blog. I wish to rectify this by making a quick life update post!

The big ones;

We no longer live in a motel, we moved into an apartment on December 9th, 2023,
I turned 16 on the 27th of March, 2024,
Ever since moving into our new apartment, I have had my own room,
I got a new computer, which is vastly superior to my old one

And for some smaller updates, I have become more artistically inspired since arriving in my less stressful living situation. Lately it feels like I'm constantly making art in some shape or form. Painting, collages, digital art, dabbles in gamedev, working on my website, et cetera. It's very freeing. Ponies have become a staple in my art as well. I am working on an OC x Canon narrative currently, and I think I'm doing it much better than what I did with I'll Push Through. You don't need to know what that was...

Well, I suppose that's all the updates I can think of right now. This has been Jo, I'll see you again soon. ^^

Current Mood: chipper
Current Location: Our new apartment!
Current Music: bloodsekai - coping mechanism <3

as usual, my life has been going through extreme ups and extreme downs. Recently, I attempted to make rice pudding in my rice cooker using some leftover rice I had from feeding my dog, Ranger. I thought it'd be a simple and wonderful idea, and because it's the holiday season(no, I do not care about Thanksgiving.) I decided to add some nutmeg to the mixture. I also added cinnamon and brown sugar.

What I didn't know until well after I'd made the pudding, was that the nutmeg was over seven years old. It went bad on November tenth, twenty-sixteen, seven years and one week before the day I decided to make the pudding. I thought, and the internet told me so, that it was fine, because it didn't look moldy, and had been kept in a secure area. In hindsight, the place we'd stored it was incredibly dirty, and not as dry as I'd thought it was.

The following night was possibly the worst night I've ever experienced, I'm forever grateful that neither my momma or my brother ate any, because it felt as though the ancient nutmeg was tearing my whole body apart. I'll spare you all of the details, but we'll say that I felt very grateful that my haircut of choice is a buzz-cut. Ever since this day, I have been battling with stomach problems, and an extreme psychological aversion to rice in general. The very idea of ever eating rice pudding again makes bile rise in my poor throat. To make things worse, the day afterward we had chicken sandwiches for dinner, and my brother wasn't careful enough to make sure the kind he got weren't spicy. If you like burning your god-damned tongue off, buy great value brand spicy chicken patties, its like they dip them in pure capsaicin powder instead of breading. So that added onto the misery. I spent another day and a half dealing with that.

Strangely, a lot of things smell like the poisoned rice pudding, so I have been suffering with that as well. I don't know how such a specific smell can permeate so deeply, but it has.

Well, this post was pointless, but... This has been Jo, I hope to see you when I'm not so miserable.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Bodys - Car Seat Headrest

i've been idly rotating the idea of a book in my head for a few days now. egeaux is meant to be pronounced like 'ego,' creating a portmanteau of 'ego death.' i don't know exactly how the concept of ego death would fit into the story that i've vaguely thought about.

mayhaps Egeaux is an eccentric -aire of some sort, most likely a millionaire, because writing billionaires is like writing a villain who isn't at least a little bit sexy. i imagine the book would begin at their funeral, with our main character present. maybe the protagonist was a close friend or relative of Egeaux, and who's life was greatly enriched by Egeaux's presence, but now that they're gone, the protagonist is experiencing an ego death of sorts. perhaps i could interweave some homoromanticism into it.

or, maybe if i'd rather go for the Ya age bracket this time, Egeaux is a good friend/lover of the main character who died recently. i probably should avoid suicide, since that is very similar to my friend Lyric's book, I Don't Like Blue. i don't wish to step on his toes, though i'd never go through the traditional publishing route. nevertheless, i don't know if i will go for the ya age bracket this time, as ya literature doesn't interest me, despite the fact that i am part of the target audience. i prefer grittier stories, i suppose. though, there are some middle-grade books that interest me... maybe i'm just a hipster and don't like saturated markets.

i would like to write some younger characters, since Godly Foals only has two teenagers, both of whom are older than me. but this entry isn't about Godly Foals.

i suppose i'll put Egeaux's death on the backburner for a little while...

Current Mood: thinking

i've seen the reading/playing/listening format of post on other sites, so i want to make my own format.

Learning about

HTML/CSS, i am currently conspiring to learn how to truly code. i have been using pre-made layouts for my website for the entirety of it's existence, and i would like to one day code my own pages. i know that it seems simple for most, but my brain is similar to that of a brick wall. i can edit HTML/CSS just fine, but handwriting it is difficult.

Working on

Godly Foals, my book, and it's characters. i am struggling with Dandelion and Connor, the two sheep girls who become close friends of Angel, Cecil, and Fynn. Connor is psychically connected to Fynn, but she is like that with all Wind-Gods, as that is the type of God that blessed her when she was born. Fynn is half-Wind God, so their connection isn't as strong, but it's still enough to drive Connor and Dandelion towards his little family. Angel's development is going well, he is becoming more complicated by the day, but that is good for someone like him. Starlings are complicated creatures, you know, they can be temperamental. though, maybe it is less of Starlings being temperamental, and more so Angel being a hot-headed bastard. Cecil has remained mostly unchanged from the beginning of this draft, he is graceful and beautiful as always. the Titanic Muletaur is a very simple character to write. Cecil is much like myself, though he cares more for his looks than i do. he is a Fire God vessel, and if Fire Gods were more known about, surely he'd have been found out by now.

enough about my book..

Doing for leisure

i have become infinitely interested in flash games and the archival efforts to save them. i find the idea of Flashpoint to be a true statement to humanity's incredible need to keep things. i cannot download flashpoint, as i use a chromebook, but nevertheless i find it immensely interesting. i have been playing every flash game i can get my hands on, namely the "Papa's -eria" series, which is cliche, i know. if it's not broke, don't fix it. if you have any other games you think i should try, please leave a comment. :)

this has been Radi, i'll see you later. :)

Current Mood: creative

it seems that there are few communities on this site that are still active, and the few that i've found only have a post or two from this year... seems that i've joined at a weird time in the site's userbase. that's alright though, the main function, making posts, still appeals to me.

Current Mood: surprised

good evening. :) my name is Jo, though sometimes i go by Radi, Yasha, or Cat online. i am fifteen years old as of november 2023, and i am what you may call "always online." i am autistic, and i enjoy writing about fiction and being present online.

in the past i have tried to keep online journals, such as on blogspot or spacehey, with very little success. i'm not usually one to talk about myself publicly, because i find the things i do more important than myself as a person. writing about me is difficult, because it is hard for me to visualize myself in terms that most others can understand. i consider myself to be 'complicated,' but not in the way that is palatable to people, not in the 'sexy' or 'mysterious' sense, moreso in the 'exhausting' or 'draining' sense. so journaling publicly has been a struggle. i hope dreamwidth will provide me with the motivation to write more about myself, because myself does not need to be palatable to others for it to be important.

i work extensively in media archival, i have a dedicated tumblr blog to archiving an obscure manga series that me and a trusted collaborator hold dear, and i often find myself downloading strange things off the web in hopes that, should that something ever go lost, i will always have a copy of it in case anyone ever needs it again. i most like archiving videos and books, but i have a somewhat extensive collection of obscure music, as well.

in the past i have lost immensely important things due to hard-drive deterioration, changing devices without considering to back things up, and general stupidity, both from me and from others. the web is not always forever, as we all painfully learn sooner or later.

i hope to post more soon. for now, this is Radi, and i'll see you later. :)